:: Tuesday, December 27, 2005 ::

avalon

You said you’d meet me here. I waited and I waited but you never materialized before my eyes. Why aren’t you here yet? Granted we didn’t promise to comfort each other’s shadows today but we always make unwritten meetings anyway, so where are you?

The slithery cold winds of dusk brushed a hissing whisper against my ears.

Your friend came and leffft
With another friend no lessss
Should you consider it a theffft
Or a decision made under duressss?

In that instant I disappeared completely. My eyes, my lips, my hair, my arms, my legs, my mind, my heart, my everything. All that remained were the memories of yesterday that occupied within.

Tell me, are they real if they exist only to me?

I cried and I cried the whole night through
But nothing happened, it’s not true
The tears never came to me or you
Because a ghost cannot drink this rue

Why didn’t you take me with you? You hate me, you hate me, you hate me.
Why did you leave me here alone? I hate you, I hate you, I love you.

I’ve never missed you so much before. But you’ll come back tomorrow. Right? Of course. You always do.

Because tomorrow always comes and never ends.

Please don’t promise me tomorrow
That you’ll take away its sorrow
Please tell me some love you’ll borrow
To accompany today’s empty hollow


I just want you here, now, today. Please?

... Only a distant requiem answered me.



At the very least, let me know if I should say goodbye.



:: Another emo-ambient rambling at 1:33pm ::

:: Tuesday, December 06, 2005 ::

sp8ceboy you've missed me


Just for you ++JBOT.



<3 mIRC f0r3v3r


:: Another pointless rambling at 7:08pm ::

"Life is everything and nothing all at once..." - Billy Corgan

|the author|

disgruntled, distasteful, disdained, disillusioned and loves to diss. usually drunk.

|where|

KL, Malaysia. Likely stuck in a traffic jam or amongst idiots.

|musical inclinations|

The Smashing Pumpkins, Radiohead, Sigur Ros, Portishead, Blonde Redhead, The Beatles, ...And You Will Know Us By The Trail Of Dead, A Camp, Album Leaf, Aphex Twin, Aqualung, Arcade Fire, Art of Fighting, Ash, Azure Ray, Beulah, Bjork, Bright Eyes, Cat Power, Catatonia, Chemical Brothers, Clinic, Cocteau Twins, Damien Rice, Dashboard Confessional, David Kitt, Death Cab For Cutie, Deftones, Dntel, Dust Brothers, Emilie Simon, Flaming Lips, Hefner, Her Space Holiday, HIM, Hooverphonic, James Blunt, John Lennon, Kings of Convenience, Kruder & Dorfmeister, Lali Puna, Louis Armstrong, Mandalay, Massive Attack, Meanwhile Back In Communist Russia, Mercury Rev, Mew, Modest Mouse, Mogwai, Mum, Muse, My Bloody Valentine, My Morning Jacket, My Vitriol, N.E.R.D., Nine Inch Nails, Oasis, Paul Oakenfold, Placebo, Postal Service, Prodigy, Rialto, Royksopp, Sneaker Pimps, Sparklehorse, Super Furry Animals, Telepopmusik, Tenacious D, The Concretes, The Ditty Bops, The Kinks, The Pillows, The Platters, The Robot Ate Me, The Six Parts Seven, The Streets, The Strokes, The Zutons, Thirteen Senses, Turin Brakes, Unbelievable Truth, Wheat, Yeah Yeah Yeahs, Youth Group, Zero 7, Zwan

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